If you have been following my blog, you have probably been wondering where I’ve been. The truth is, I’ve really been having a tough time managing my life! Why does it always feel so incredibly challenging to balance everything? Since mid May, the end of the school year madness found me and swallowed me whole. School projects, parties, baseball, swim team, and basketball suddenly moved into prime time. Add to that field day, one son’s 11th birthday parties (yes, parties), and multiple volunteer obligations. And don’t forget my regular duties of housekeeping, bill/money managing and clothes washing. Finally, school has ended and my kids are on summer schedule – and near me – for most of the day – every day. Now, I know I am not sharing anything that so many of you haven’t experienced at one time or another – or everyday for some. I am also not complaining. I enjoy my life and feel very blessed for it each day – that doesn’t mean it’s easy for me. I try schedules, organizing, planning and writing lists. I think it’s a different kind of challenge as a stay at home mom, because I need to create my own structure for the family. I honestly never have a day where I feel completely accomplished. I am constantly making choices and trying figure out what the priority is at the moment. I have days where certain things get more attention than others. Unfortunately, most of the time, the things that are important for me to do regularly – work out, eat right, read, write – often don’t happen often enough because I allow other distractions to take over. I am constantly searching for the right formula and balance. So, like so many of you, I am a work in progress. I don’t always have it together. In the time that I’ve been writing this, I’ve stopped to answer 10 different questions from my boys, cleaned up a dog accident, switched and folded the wash, made myself some lunch, talked to my husband about the schedule for the night, and broken up at least 8 separate fights between my boys. When I really think about it, I guess maybe I don’t give myself enough credit. I’m guessing many of us struggle to see how skilled and talented we are in this job of parenting and living – even when it doesn’t feel that way. I for one am going to continue trying to do what I am loving – connecting with all of you. Maybe in the process I can learn to accept and embrace the disorder and give myself a few more pats on the back than I do. I hope you’ll join me.